I am entirely too concerned with what other people think. Especially the people I care most about. I’m getting better at putting my thoughts out there and speaking my mind. But I always hold back, and yes it is strategic to think before one speaks but I find myself attempting to be agreeable. Not saying all of what I’m thinking or classifying and quantifying my statements. I really become what other people assume me to be at face value.
I became exactly what I hate most at dinner the other night. In one-on-one conversation I can redeem my reputation as an intellectual, opinionated woman. However, when in front of a group, I laugh and smile. At one point I think I flipped my hair. I embodied that stereotypical girl-woman who is there for decoration not conversation. Yes, I was the youngest member of this group. The other guests were all absolutely intimidating leaders in business, but instead of having the confidence to be myself and speak my mind I hid behind that ingénue façade and acted the part. Rather than being able to relate a story slowly, I rushed through it, didn’t even bother with comedic timing and did whatever it took to get the spotlight off of me. Instead of people seeing me for who I am or what I wish to be they saw me as a little girl.
I want a job, I want to be taken seriously and I am sabotaging myself. I had a prime opportunity to demonstrate how mature and competent I am and instead I threw it out the window. I became the flirt that commands no respect but grovels for attention. As if asking if the group would ignore how I had presented myself all evening. I had on a blazer, a turtleneck, and earrings that matched my necklace. Please keep in mind, I don’t accessorize well. I did everything I could to appear together and adult. Yet, the conversation turns to me and I am terrified. If I don’t freeze up and just hear my heart thudding in my ears, I say something stupid or make light in order to avoid saying something that garnishes displeasure. I am desperate for acceptance and approval.
Certainly there are times what behaviors are appropriate and inappropriate. This was an occasion in which I became exactly what I abhor, the stereotypical dolt. I’m sure if there was a tape of me talking I would judge it mercilessly. And maybe that’s my problem, I feel inadequate because I judge myself harshly. No one else has to say something to bring me down because I already feel as if I don’t belong, like a fool, and as if I need the consent of other people to quantify my personal worth. When I dress to go out I don’t wear what makes me comfortable. I wear what I think makes me fit in. Constantly driven to pass for whatever is most attractive to the people I am with or the place we are going. Probably the most devastating realization is that I don’t know myself.
I can’t be satisfied if I am not extraordinary and honestly I don’t feel as if I am. I feel rather mediocre and perhaps what is most stunning is that I am constantly comparing myself to others. Worried that I won’t meet some imaginary standard I have created. If something doesn’t work out, I assume it’s because of a personal failing. If I don’t have the job I want, I consider that other people know more about my ineptitude and therefore my position is completely justified. I am a door mat. And worse than that I do it to myself, no one polices me. No one has ever confronted me and said something derogatory or cruel. I have never been in a situation where someone else made me feel like an outsider. I have always been in the in crowd, yet making myself feel as if it were going to crumble. As if any second they would find out I’m not supposed to be here and kick me out. Take their friendship, camaraderie and leave. I have spent my whole life doing that to other people first. Judging and ganging up because they’re on the outside. Yet if people are not receptive to me, I take myself out of the situation before it can harm me. Or open me up for insult. It is a terrible way to live one’s life, constantly questioning their self worth.
Of course, to counteract this self pity cycle I make rash decisions to do whatever it is that scares me most. I will take that leap and put myself out there but only after I have found some loophole and some reason why I can get out at any time. I decide I don’t like a person, a group, or a lifestyle choice and therefore can justify removing myself from the situation. If we met, you would never think I am any of these things. I would be exactly the way you wanted me to be. And I am not ok with that.
New Orleans: Organizational Behavior II October 23, 2008
Tags: Flood, healthcare, New Orleans
The first theory that can be applied to the second half of Jane O. Hansen’s article series, “Through Hell and High Water” in The Atlanta Journal- Constitution is the Trait Theory of Leadership. This theory argues that great leadership is, “developed through experience and learning”[1]. Leadership between Tulane and Charity is characterized primarily by Dr. Ben deBoisblanc of Charity Hospital and Mel Lagarde, the Hospital Corporation of America’s executive stationed at Tulane. Charity is an example of how this theory was not applied and could have helped the hospital to better deal with the crisis resulting from Hurricane Katrina. Tulane demonstrates how this theory can be successfully implemented when applied appropriately.
Dr. Ben DeBoisblanc was not trained for leadership. As a physician, Dr. Ben’s priority was the health and safety of his patients; not the successful organization of an evacuation. Dr. Ben demonstrates his preference for medicine over administration repeatedly. When offered the opportunity to have four of his sickest patients evacuated, “Dr. Ben consulted with other doctors: Which four should go first?”[2] Consultations are an important part of medical treatment, but not conducive to a swift evacuation. The time this process takes distracts from the executive decision that needs to be made, to get four patients to safety. Dr. Ben uses critical time to confer with his fellow physicians rather than depending on his knowledge base to make an educated decision quickly. Dr. Ben demonstrates, “Intelligence…self-confidence, [high] level of energy and activity”[3] however he fails to show, dominance…[or] task-relevant knowledge”[4]. His choice is the choice of a doctor, not a leader. Later it is discovered, “When the owner of a Missouri-based helicopter company promised to send four helicopters for Charity’s sickest patients, Dr. Ben assumed those choppers would be dedicated to his hospital. But it wouldn’t work that way”[5]. Failing to make this clarification, Dr. Ben realizes too late that those helicopters have already left without his patients. His outrage and later outburst demonstrate Dr. Ben’s passion for the safety and wellbeing of his patients but do not emphasize his qualifications as a strong leader under stress.
The executive in charge of the evacuation at Tulane was Mel Lagarde. He clearly demonstrates the strong leadership qualities described in Trait Theory. Being able to focus on the organization and structure of the evacuation enabled Lagarde to separate himself from the patients in a way that Dr. Ben was not able to. “Dr. Ben was the passionate physician frantic to save his patients. Lagarde was the coolheaded corporate leader who had helped put in motion an effective rescue operation.”[6] This distinction is exemplified in Lagarde’s calm control of the situation. He is in full possession of Kouzes and Posner’s most critical leadership traits, “honesty, forward-looking, inspiring, and competent”[7] he applies these qualities when directing the evacuation action for Tulane and Charity’s patients. Legarde,
“knew the physician [Dr. Ben] was desperate, and he understood why. He had gone down to the seventh-floor holding area and surveyed the scene of sick Charity patients lying on the floor. He’d ordered Tulane staff to find additional oxygen cylinders for patients who were running out. But Dr. Ben kept accusing him of not giving priority to Charity patients, of not understanding how ill they were.”[8]
This situation shows how Lagarde chose to act whereas Dr. Ben chose to talk. Though both men were very successful in their careers, it was Legarde’s job to be a leader, which gave him a competitive edge over Dr. Ben who is first and foremost, a doctor.
The second set of theories that can be applied to Charity and Tulane are, Situational Theories. These theories, “Propose that leader styles should match the situation at hand.”[9] Due to the lack of involvement or support from the government, Charity is not able to implement these theories in its evacuation, though they might have improved the hospital’s results. Tulane’s leadership is trained and prepared to meet with the demands of Hurricane Katrina. Therefore, Tulane is an appropriate example of the success that those appropriately qualified for emergency situations can have when the situation calls for their expertise.
Charity lacked leadership from the government and, “More than 48 hours after losing their emergency power, Charity doctors had abandoned hope that the government would come”[10]. Without the much needed support from above, doctors and nurses were left to their own devices. Charity staff had low situational control, no stable task structure, and in the crisis situation, absolutely no positional power. Lacking all of these tools of leadership as described in Fiedler’s Contingency Model,[11] organization among Charity’s staff broke down. “Holland sympathized with the Charity staff. He knew they couldn’t see the whole picture.”[12] Limited foresight is one of the many shortcomings exposed as Charity’s leadership structure broke down. Dr. Ben was not trained to lead an evacuation or any major non-medical crisis. His leadership style, which enabled him to excel in the operating room, limited his potential for success during the Hurricane.
Mel Lagarde was specifically trained and prepared for the situation in New Orleans, “he was comfortable as a leader. In the midst of crisis, his confidence inspired those around him.”[13] Lagarde took control of the situation, as a task motivated leader he “focused on accomplishing goals.”[14] His method of leadership was precisely what his hospital demanded during Hurricane Katrina, “Tulane’s leaders considered it imperative to know where patients were going and had taken great pains to line up receiving hospitals. But Charity staff were at a different level of desperation. All they cared about was getting their patients out.”[15] Resolving this major concern demonstrates Lagarde’s ability to keep his wits about him under stress. Later his creativity in telling a subordinate, “The next time a government official tries to take one of our choppers…tell him this: I’m sorry, but you can’t do that. This aircraft has already been commandeered by someone else,” shows his ability to think dynamically to resolve issues. This further exemplifies how having a properly trained leader provides the greatest opportunity for the success of the endeavor.
The third theory that can be applied to the later half of “Through Hell and High Water” is, Path-Goal Theory which states, “Leader behaviors thus are expected to be acceptable when employees view them as a source of satisfaction or as paving the way to future satisfaction.”[16] The theory emphasizes how leadership can motivate employees and guide organizational action. “It (1) reduces roadblocks that interfere with goal accomplishment, (2) provides the guidance and support needed by employees, and (3) ties meaningful rewards to goal accomplishment.”[17] The Path-Goal Theory of leadership effectiveness is not demonstrated by Charity hospital as well as it is by Tulane hospital during their evacuations. Charity would have accomplished more of their goals effectively had they applied the Path-Goal Theory to their leadership.
Dr. Ben is unable to meet his own needs due to a lack of structure from the government, which is need two in Path-Goal Theory and therefore he is acting out of his own desperation. “You told me it was going to be 21 patients; you got 33, Montgomery said to Dr. Ben. I told you we’d take critically ill patients, and people who are ambulatory are coming over here.”[18] Dr. Ben is pushing his limits, “the rejection was another reminder of his hospital’s second-class status.”[19] The rewards for this action are that he was able to get 12 extra patients to safety, however in the end it will be held against him and will limit his ability to evacuate more of his patients. Thereby failing all three of the variables expected of a strong leader in Path-Goal Theory. Eventually, Dr. Ben’s antics render him completely useless, “At the end of the day, when the doctor appeared on the roof with a bullhorn, Holland took it from him, then had him removed. Dr. Ben was escorted to the seventh floor, where a Tulane police officer blocked his return with an M-16.”[20] Without considering the contingency factors or “situational variables that cause one style of leadership to be more effective than another”[21] Dr. Ben put himself in a situation where he was completely ineffective. He is unprepared to lead in this situation and with the aggressive tactics that are necessary during medical treatment finds himself unable to lead or even assist his staff on the most basic levels in an administrative crisis.
Lagarde demonstrates his skill in guiding and directing Tulane Hospital by applying the Path-Goal Theory objectives in his leadership during Hurricane Katrina. “After talking to Dr. Ben, Holland directed the Charity physician to clear the evacuation plan with those in charge: Mel Lagarde…and Jim Montgomery, president of Tulane Hospital” (HH 43). Tulane has a clear delineation of power and an organized structure which meets need two of the Path-Goal Theory.
“Lagarde was responsible for the hundreds of people still inside the hospital. Tulane had requested security from the state command post in Baton Rouge, but there was not sign of the National Guard.
That night Lagarde made the decision to move everyone out of the hospital and into Tulane’s Saratoga Street parking garage. With fewer entrances and exits to secure, Tulane guards would have an easier time protecting them.”[22]
The foresight to first request the assistance of the National Guard and then to expedite the process of protecting those in his hospital when that assistance did not arrive meets needs one, two and three of the Path-Goal Theory. It meets path one by creating the safest environment possible for everyone in the hospital. It attains need two by giving direction and clear objectives to staff. This choice meets need three by providing safety to all personnel in a timely fashion, which is both a meaningful reward and a viable goal. Also important to note is, “through it all, he remained calm.”[23] Lagarde handled this situation skillfully and with poise rather than panicking and acting rashly as Dr. Ben did already. By utilizing the tactics described in Path-Goal Theory Lagarde was able to preserve and protect more lives while skillfully giving direction and leadership to both Tulane and Charity hospital’s in the end.
[1] Kreitner, Robert and Angelo Kinicki. Organizational Behavior. 7. Boston: McGraw-Hill Irwin, 2007. pp 512.
[2] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 11.
[3] Kreitner, Robert and Angelo Kinicki. Organizational Behavior. 7. Boston: McGraw-Hill Irwin, 2007. pp 513.
[4] Kreitner, Robert and Angelo Kinicki. Organizational Behavior. 7. Boston: McGraw-Hill Irwin, 2007. pp 513.
[5] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 12.
[6] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 14.
[7] Kreitner, Robert and Angelo Kinicki. Organizational Behavior. 7. Boston: McGraw-Hill Irwin, 2007. pp 513.
[8] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 14.
[9] Kreitner, Robert and Angelo Kinicki. Organizational Behavior. 7. Boston: McGraw-Hill Irwin, 2007. pp 519.
[10] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 15.
[11] Kreitner, Robert and Angelo Kinicki. Organizational Behavior. 7. Boston: McGraw-Hill Irwin, 2007. pp 519.
[12] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 14.
[13] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 15.
[14] Kreitner, Robert and Angelo Kinicki. Organizational Behavior. 7. Boston: McGraw-Hill Irwin, 2007. pp 519.
[15] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 15.
[16] Kreitner, Robert and Angelo Kinicki. Organizational Behavior. 7. Boston: McGraw-Hill Irwin, 2007. pp 521.
[17] Kreitner, Robert and Angelo Kinicki. Organizational Behavior. 7. Boston: McGraw-Hill Irwin, 2007. pp 521.
[18] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 14.
[19] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 14.
[20] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 14.
[21] Kreitner, Robert and Angelo Kinicki. Organizational Behavior. 7. Boston: McGraw-Hill Irwin, 2007. pp 521.
[22] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 16.
[23] Hansen, Jane O.. “Through Hell and High Water.” The Atlanta Journal-Constitution (2006): 1-22. Ch. 16.